The Watershed.

Haven't been here for a while but I've got some stuff I wanna write down and all the other places I go don't quite suit it so this'll have to do.

The idea of a watershed works quite well because a whole load of what might usually be termed not connected all connected up by happening pretty much consecutively and then after them all happening I've come out the other side better off and even more relaxed.

And the thing is that most of this stuff that happened could be termed as slightly disturbing and in danger of throwing one off the proverbial edge but as I am these days it really was just stuff happening in slightly brighter colours, and possibly with greater juxtapostions in the overall composition,  than usual but even with that it doesn't make the point from where we might be looking that different.

Life in and of itself then is quite metaphorical for me, it's the way I kinda look at it passing around me, and so when the already well old laptop I've had for about four years started getting itsy bitsy around video playback and sending the operating system into safe mode, which with Linux stuff isn't the scaredy cat paralytic creature it is in windows, and if anything is almost as usable as the high octane mix it is in normal operating mode, then suffice to say I was kinda feeling that changes were on the way... so I started preparing but not in the way of actually doing anything so much as just knowing changes were afoot and getting the distance and calm to accept them as they arrived.

But now I'm kinda bored with this because going through the motions of all this stuff which came from all angles is just too complex and I can't really be bothered because in the end I've got through it all with flying colours and it didn't rattle me at all.

Computer stopped working, internet went down, face came off building, old friend went nuts, older friend not seen for ages turned up and third cat arrived to live with us so all in all a lot of stuff went down and given I live on next to zero money then all of this could have been daunting but it wasn't at all.

But it's kinda the computer I'm most chuffed about because I'd found a whole desktop box on the side of the road I'd pretty much forgotten about and also a coupla motherboards complete with cpu's and ram and suchlike which makes them work like they are supposed to and after a few days of not having a computer at all and going down to my bro's to use his to do the stuff required to get the internet back up and running and getting pen and paper out to get the build up of ideas on paper, or out there anyways.

And that's what kinda came to me was that I was entirely taking for granted this playing with ideas and with the laptop going and the internet working I'd gotten very lazy about this stuff and just poured it out without consideration and so having this wherewithal disappear and then feel the need to still get a bunch of words together and going back to good old pens and paper  and also see how not published such, having the availability of 'posting', being on a soapbox... wasn't there or, at the very least, was different with pens and paper, then the whole subjective mix of it all came under scrutiny... as in what the fuck is this need and why is it even in me?

But you know... whatever, as I don't even take such as that very seriously and the simple fact I kinda roused myself to realising that money isn't required because, and I'd forgotten this bit, that a saving grace sorta appeared as a friend of mine had promised me he'd be buying a chair I'd made when a particular sculpture he'd bought on trademe was sold on so I went to see him and indeed the sale was imminent and the Nestle dynasty were the ones interested but then this dog they have had to go to the vets to get it's legs fixed and, sorry, no money for Sean as this dog that isn't even ours and we don't like much anyways is getting precedence.

I took that with as much grace as I could muster as it did actually shock me a bit because if there was anyones word that was worth counting on, outside family, it was indeed this fellows but I felt much more complex issues afoot within his domicile and felt that indeed this fellow was doing the best he could within the circumstances and even went back two days after and told him I was sorry for not being as understanding as I might have been.

But sweet as, this denial of money which would have seen to my accrued debt and been able to go out and get another laptop wasn't to be, as in the easy lazy way through, but then I realised I had these desktop 'puter's lying about so I got them out of storage and hooked things up to TV's to see what might be available.

The complete desktop didn't fire up but it did make noises so I knew, at least, the power supply was working so I took out the motherboard and chucked in one of the other ones I had and it actually went as in windows even reared it's ugly stupid head... but typically of windows it warned me I was doing dangerous things without startup CD's and numbers but that didn't matter as all I needed was a working bios with the setting to boot from a DVD and I could do the Ubuntu thing anyways.

All this done I went off down to my Bro's to download the manual for this motherboard 'cause there was a bunch of usb connections and reset's and startup button's and led's to connect to get the proper sensory experience as I'd only been able to figure out the power on and reset as they're momentary switches and polarities don't matter... you could even just hit them with a screw driver end alike in the old days to get the solenoid on a starter motor to engage.

That all sorted and the 'puter wired up as it should, and I'd also checked if the DVD thingy stuck it's tongue in and out, but then, oh, and my brother had a spare Tv screen after I told him I'd have to wait until Mum had gone to bed before I could use the sitting room Tv, but then it's all set up but then the DVD won't stick it's tongue out so power down and put in the one I have from my own almost ancient desktop which gave up the ghost almost a decade ago... but it's a sata connected one and theres only one sata power cable in this found object and it's one of the two harddrives in this box... oh well, disconnect the sata harddrive and hook up my old DVD and suffice to say it all worked.

Now all I need to do is buy a power plug adaptor though why I'd even need another hard drive when the one I'm using, even if it's old school IDE, is just 250Gb... I suppose because I wanna se if it works.

There is this other thing as well, which alike everything I seem to do is quite complex but at the same time kinda figures itself out the less I get involved, is seeing whether the drawing tablet I got a month or two back works with this new 'puter 'cause in a weird sense it just might but then if it does I'll have to do the work with it that I thought was lost, well not lost 'cause the itsy bitsy laptop hardrive can be extracted and USB'd up to get into it, but then with another stoke of luck I found my old USB stick down out my brother's and sure enough all the files I'd thought were momentarily lost were actually on the stick... bugger even.

And over all this is that I just kinda let fall apart what ever wanted to fall apart and so it did but then it's all put itself back together as well with almost less actual being involved than that which I applied to letting it all just fall where it may.